My weakness...

"If I must boast, I will boast in the things that show my weakness."

2 Corinthians 11:30

Sometimes, it feels like I use this blog to self-examine (or criticize.)  And sometimes, I use this blog to sort out the things God is teaching me.  Throughout it all, I hope that the overwhelming message is that I can do nothing apart from the strength of Christ.

This day was a huge reminder of that.  The past two weeks have been filled with hubby working LOOOOONG hours and lots of sick people.  In fact, we've all been passing around a fever/cold/headache thing.  So, we aren't exactly livin' la vida loca over here.  It has been an endless stream of, "Goodbye, honey.", "Stooooooop fighting!", "How do six people create 50 loads of laundry a week?", Ok, seriously...it is 2:30 in the morning.  If you're not going to puke, please go back to bed!", "Uh, yes....school attendance line?  ummmm, errrr, uhhhh, wait, which kid is staying home today?"  "Hi!  I'd like to make an appointment with the Dr.  Yes.  I do sound familiar.  I've been there three times this week."

Ok, Ok...you get it!

So, add a huge misunderstanding with hubby and the fact that I mistakenly made the same dinner last night that I made the last time he had the stomach flu......which he has not forgotten...which he did not mention until the end of dinner as he looked at his untouched food.

AND....

You will find a girl that desperately needs to boast in her weakness. 

I have thought the following, this week:

Is my husband repulsed by my weight gain?

Am I failing with my kids?

Why can't I go to Hawaii like my in-laws?

Heck, why can't I spell any more?

Why are we adopting?

Why did we rescue this dog?

Would I have more value if I worked outside the home?

and on and on

I am weak, but HE is strong.  I was never meant to handle this on my own.  My broken moments only serve to bring me closer to Him.  He is big enough.  I can invite him to my pity party and he will come.  He will close the party down, but He will come.  He is faithful.  And no matter how cloudy my vision gets and no matter how deep I slide into my own self-doubt...He is strong enough to pull me out.  I am reminded of the blessings in my day.  My home is filled with quirky and amazing people.  We laugh at the silliness and we hug through the hurts.  God is meeting all of our basic needs.  I am married to a godly man that loves me completely.  We are completely trusting God with our finances in every way.  We have prayed that He would keep our old stuff running so we could spend his money on a child that was abandoned in a shed.  

You know why I'll continue to boast in my weakness?  Because it is such a great opportunity to show His strength.  Anything good that comes from my life...anything that is remotely unselfish is because of His life in me.  I am dead to myself and I live in Him.  My doubts and weaknesses lose their weight when they are measured against eternity.  

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